FIFTEEN DAYS

its been fifteen days and counting
since the first time
green and white and oh so sweet
both stupid and sublime
nothing much has changed for me
my head still feels the same
I still can’t bear to go outside
still don’t know who to blame
it should be working about now
I should learn to believe
that life is what I make it
its not yet my time to leave
apparently it takes a while
for seratonin to build up
I've waited over two weeks now
I'm ready to give up
there’s so much I have to do
but I can't get out of bed
so I stay there all day long
and hope to wake up dead