Pure
You stare so strongly like you want to suck me in
I don't understand why you smile your sickly grin
For I am only 13, breasts just buds and barely bleeding
I am pure although I dress in black I never let him touch me there
You know I never let him touch me there
In cornfield nights chaste kisses stolen
Your son, not my lover, for we never loved
We learned together, clammy palms pressed close
And once, hugged, I thought he'd never let me go
Happiness under sunset, youth without a care
You know I never let him touch me there
In avenues of trees and houses
Contentment really real
I see it faked on TV screens
The American ideal
Soon to be ripped at the seams
I still had pigtails
And a rabbit
And I still believed in dreams
Now I'm growing faster than I've ever grown before
And concerns afresh of folic acid
Leave me longing for more
For summer nights and summer love
My frailty seemed then enough
You snapped me like a twig then let me go
The smell of rotting flesh between your legs
The bitter aftertaste of metal in your kiss
Your evil eyes glazed red with hate
Your animal sex like rape
You told me not to tell I didn't tell instead I blossomed
Grew from inside out with child that by rights is yours and mine
The father of my first kiss
The parent of a child
Took me, a child, away from me
And fucked me, told me lies
Scarred me, left me here to cope
As days turned into nights
And now as winter lifts
I know next summer and the next
Can't possibly be all right
And me, now mother
I stand strong
With babe in arms
And school books now in boxes
And me now, mother
I did no wrong
I feel the cold
With his hand on my mouth I did what I was told
Copyright 1999 by _sPiDerBaBy_
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